Monday, September 5, 2011
乌云在我们心里刻下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明 就像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看的清
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔 已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠过天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边
Been holding onto something so dear to me for the past 4 years. Its never easy to give up on something or someone that really means the world to you. I've tried and am still trying though it doesn't seem to be working. It seems like i can never give you up totally. I've let go but moving on? It's a different thing.You're like a shadow, following me everywhere i go. Nevertheless, i will continue trying and hopefully, i'll be able to move on real soon.
Yours always,
Sng yi ling
Labels: 10/07/11
<3 12:55 AM.
SHINee - Jojo
I know that
( My baby, I love you)
I gotta get over you
That’s right, that’s right
( My heart)
Look, just look at that look
She’s almost like me, saying how it’s easy to forget
I don’t want to believe it
(Oh ah) A restless night
I’m so sick of my head hurting
I get on my knees,
Hit my chest, and even if I cry,
Can something that can’t be done be done?
JoJo! When the sad music flows
I think of you (Eh eh eh)
JoJo! Why can’t I erase
A heartless you (Oh oh oh)
(Hey) My JoJo! (Love) Yes JoJo!
Stay! What did I do wrong? I, I was blind
(Hey) My JoJo! (Love) Yes JoJo!
Stay! I get trampled by both of your eyes
I, I was blind
So many nights, I wonder why
What can I do to make it right?
Everything will be all right
So JoJo, just tell me why
I don’t want to cry (Oh, ah)
My abandoned heart gets scratched deeply
I’m so sick of my head hurting
JoJo! When this bitter music stops
I want to send you away (Eh eh eh)
JoJo! Why can’t I, why can’t I
Erase a heartless you (Oh oh oh)
(Hey) My JoJo! (Love) Yes JoJo!
Stay! What did I do wrong? I, I was blind
(Hey) My JoJo! (Love) Yes JoJo!
Stay! I don’t know y-yet
Baby JoJo, do you know?
The heart here is also cold!
Baby, baby, why did you leave?
I cry and become exhausted
Waking up from a dream
JoJo! When the sad music flows
I think of you (Eh eh eh)
JoJo! Why can’t I erase
A heartless you (Oh oh oh)
JoJo! When this bitter music stops
I want to send you away (Eh eh eh)
JoJo! Why can’t I, why can’t I
Erase a heartless you (Oh oh oh)
<3 12:33 AM.
Sometimes, i feel that life's tough this year.
Though i'm much happier, much healthier but regrets there are.
Not studying hard and skipping school for almost a year and a half just because of a failed relationship, causing so much unhappiness to my parents/family.
Having to catch up so much to be able to take my O's the end of this year, it's really not easy.
Plus being in a shit school with shit teachers, it's even harder.
School 6 times a week, going to the airport to study every sunday.
Gosh, never would i expect myself to be studying so hard, never.
Sometimes i really wonder,
What if i handled our break up properly? Will i still be in chung cheng? Will we still be good friends?
Lots of question marks in my head.
But one thing for sure, i know i've learnt/grew up a lot since then. I've gain lots of things too.
True friends, how much love my family really has for me, becoming less spoilt and becoming a better person.
I guess it's all worth it?
<3 1:04 AM.
Okay, so i guess i just deleted the blogs that i wrote for him the during the span of last year. My thoughts, my feelings.
A relieved i guess? Like finally, i'm able to do it :)
<3 9:51 PM.
HELLO PEOPLE!
So long since i blogged! Hahaha.
My Chinese O level paper is coming and i'm SOOOOOOOOOOOO nervous because the teacher in MDIS can't teach for nuts and i'm left to fend for myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:(
But its okay! Smart me can handle it well and i have SMART friends like Tohy and that stupid pig to help me<3
Hmmmm, was so touched when i saw the post that Teresa dedicated to me. ILY BBG!!!!!!!<3
You're a super nice friend and you deserve the best! Wait and see, good things/handsome guys will come knocking your way!:)
Okay, so now i'm losing motivation to go to school because i really feel i can study better on my own but i can't waste $8000 right? So every single day, i'll have to drag my butt outta my bed and travel ALLLLLLLLLLLLL the way to queenstown to school T.T I HATE MDIS!!!!!!!!!!!!
OHYA! A new additional member to my family: BABY SHIRO!<3
A mini maltese whose birthday is on the 29th of January 2011! I swear he's ADORABLE ttm!
Can't stop myself from spazzing over him everytime someone ask me about him!
Hmmm, i'm refurnishing my room and its so pweeeettyyyyyy now in shades of pink, with a queen size princess bed and vintage floral stuffs. I heart heart heart my room now!<3
My mum recently went Korea and got LOTS of SHINee stuffs so i'm happygirl94 now!
Lastly, i'm SOOOOO VERYYYYYYYY SADDDDD that DBSK disbanded:( I love yunjae moments, i love DBSK! They are really the Legend and the love i have for them is different from SHINee. Hmmmm, just hope that once U-know and Max's contracts end with SM, they'll join JYJ and reform a new DBSK. THE RETURN OF THE KINGS!
Ooooo, and i cant wait for SHINee's Japan Replay debut! My Dubu SOOOOOOOOOOO HANDSOME/ADORABLE/ATTRACTIVE inside. Not forgetting the rest looking so damn HAWT inside!

Say hello to baby Shiro!<3
PS: I'm so glad i have true friends who i can count on now <3
Okay, just a few pictures to upload!

Look at how happy sj is while taking photot with teddy! Hahaha!
<3 11:54 PM.
Woah, it's been a month since i've posted? Haha.
It's alright!
Sngyiling is working hard now and giving her best for O's this year!:)
Been meeting my chung cheng peers EVERY SINGLE week since school reopen-ed and i'm proud to say that we haven't lost touch!:D
And they are forever so sweeeeeeeeeettttttttttt~<3
GR-ians, the basketballers, BN-ians, cousins~<3
I'm meeting them at least once a week!
Hahahaha.
So i'm like packed packed packed to the brim!:)
But i'm loving how my life is now.
Cherish what i have presently is what i'm gonna do from now on, or maybe what i've been doing.
No more dwelling on the past!:)
A little messed up photos of my life:
This cutie pie has been picking me up from school every saturday, coming all the way from pasir ris to queenstown:) I LOVE YOU TERESATOH! THANKYOU!:D

Smarty pants cousin that got into Vet!<3

Never forgetting my BN-ians :)

The GR-ians clique came to surprise me with a birthday cake '' from '' Onew at my school! SO TOUCHED!! They were expecting me to cry but TOOOOO BAD! Strong girl me wouldn't :)

My fav couzs<3!!

A few of the team~~~~ :)

MY PRIMARY SCHOOLMATES!!!!! Haha. Was so shocked when they called me at 10plus at night for supper. I miss parry :/

The MDIS clique. That's what they call themselves~ Hahahahaha!
Lastly, ending with photos of my beloved Dubu Lee Jinki Onew!!!!!!!!<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
PS: Achieved my aim of getting highest in class for my chem/physics/Amath. Emath missed by a little but don't worry! I'll continue to work harder and get my desired score for O's!
PPS: I LOVE MY PARENTS AND SISTERS FOR BEING ALWAYS SO FORGIVING TOWARDS ME AND GIVING IN TO ME CAUSE I'M THE YOUNGEST! I THANK BUDDHA FOR SUCH FAMILY MEMBERS!<3
PPPS: I really love my friends and thank you all so much for all the support you all have been giving me:
PPPPS: Praying for people in Japan to get through that horrible Earthquake and Tsunami :)
<3 12:00 AM.