Thursday, April 29, 2010
Why? Why did you not tell me when sucha big thing happened?
I want to share your burden, i want to be there for you.
If we were like before, i would be the first one to know.
You will tell me anything no matter what.
I really want you to love me like how you did.
I really want time to reverse back.
I want us to be like before.
I want us to be happy, not like this.
For that, my condolences.
PS. i love you....
please?
I want to share your burden, i want to be there for you.
If we were like before, i would be the first one to know.
You will tell me anything no matter what.
I really want you to love me like how you did.
I really want time to reverse back.
I want us to be like before.
I want us to be happy, not like this.
For that, my condolences.
PS. i love you....
please?
<3 9:31 PM.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Look above! Everything for $12 only and it's not bad but guess what? All the dishes are pork-.-
Eat till i xian. Guess i've really changed. Never used to like trying new stuffs. Haha.
The place beside where we ate is a night club i think. When the door opened i saw people pole dancing-.-
AND YOU KNOW WHAT! PHILIPINO SINGS POKER FACE TOO LAH! DAMN DISTURBING-.-
Lucas Lim is an idiot. He's making me think so muchhhhhhh!
<3 9:57 PM.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Today is a crazy day! Was super tired in the morning but okay after that.
Had 2.4 today and i ran 12.35. Okay lah, judging that i haven't been training for almost 3months. Haha.
Ran with teck hwee but after that he and kang jie race. Damn funny lah!
I was damn tired still make me laugh.
Before 2.4 amanda and i went to DL's classroom and we played badminton with newspaper and brooms.
Super damn fun and funny! Haha.
BN will always be BN eh? Haha.
After that back to LT1 and we started playing the ''special'' chair right?
Teck hwee first victim! Haha.
Had 2.4 today and i ran 12.35. Okay lah, judging that i haven't been training for almost 3months. Haha.
Ran with teck hwee but after that he and kang jie race. Damn funny lah!
I was damn tired still make me laugh.
Before 2.4 amanda and i went to DL's classroom and we played badminton with newspaper and brooms.
Super damn fun and funny! Haha.
BN will always be BN eh? Haha.
After that back to LT1 and we started playing the ''special'' chair right?
Teck hwee first victim! Haha.
Realised it's a long post and i also very lazy type alr. BYE!
DON'T BE JEALOUS LULU!:D
PS: Had an on and off stomach ache from morning.After eating my haagen daz, it came back:(:(:(:(:(::(:(:(:(:(:(
Bad night ahead i predict? Crapzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxz.
<3 10:06 PM.
Monday, April 26, 2010
I always thought i still can count on you after all, we've been through so much. However, after looking at your reaction today, it tells everything. Not like you still care how much turmoil i am going through. Not like you still care how troubled i am. You've always been my pillar of support, being there for me as and when i have troubles. Your reaction today really shocked me, truely. I held back my tears knowing that even if i'd breakdown in front of you, you wouldn't comfort and ensure me that everything will be alright. You would just stand there quietly and watch. So i held back my tears and let them shed only after you said ' i needa go to innosphere alr ' immediately after we stepped into school. You've changed, we've changed, everything have changed. I cannot no longer count on you.
Sometimes i'm really amazed how a person can change so greatly in a short span of time.
Just because of some wrong companies, some wrong friends and they've changed so much.
Why spoil our relationship cause of people who weren't important to you in the first place?
What happened to always and forever?
What happened to the dumbdumb's?
What happened to us?
Hmmm, actually i'm really alright already. I just need to slowly extract you outta my life.
I'm not crying over you anymore, it's just regrets and pity.
Why end something that was once so beautiful?
Sometimes i'm really amazed how a person can change so greatly in a short span of time.
Just because of some wrong companies, some wrong friends and they've changed so much.
Why spoil our relationship cause of people who weren't important to you in the first place?
What happened to always and forever?
What happened to the dumbdumb's?
What happened to us?
Hmmm, actually i'm really alright already. I just need to slowly extract you outta my life.
I'm not crying over you anymore, it's just regrets and pity.
Why end something that was once so beautiful?
I wonder.......................
It's just like this picture.
Slowly fading into something that we can't see anymore.
<3 8:19 PM.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Today is a VERY bad day. But after talking to you i was much alright already.
Thanks lovely!
Ughhhh, but it's still damn crappy now.
Xian!
Dark gloomy day..........................................................
I think i'm starting to develope feelings for you,but, aren't we a little impossible?
<3 9:56 PM.
You're not sorry,you're not repentant at all.
You wanna play this kinda of game, i'll play with you.
Anyway i've already been made since the start of last year.
Let's watch from now.
You wanna play this kinda of game, i'll play with you.
Anyway i've already been made since the start of last year.
Let's watch from now.
<3 9:02 AM.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Came out with a towel wrapped around me.
Walked up to my sister's room and opened to see my sister's boyfriend right in front of me.
What a day-.-
Walked up to my sister's room and opened to see my sister's boyfriend right in front of me.
What a day-.-
<3 8:58 PM.
Monday, April 19, 2010
' Owe Money, Pay Money'.
Hasn't it always been that when you owe someone money, you'll return the person as soon as possible?( Unless you're some asshole who can't bear to part with his/her money )
Hmmm, what ah peh told me really shocked me.
You can't bear to return MY money back to ME.
Isn't it amazing? And you jolly well know what those money were spent on.
WHY THE FUCK HAVE YOU CHANGED SO MUCH?
Like seriously, i don't even recognise you when i see you now. You're not MY **** anymore, you're THE **** now. Seriously, if you didn't went in that class, get close with that kinda people, think?
What will we be now?
I'm really very disappointed, as a friend, as a person.
What happened?
Even your money now is much more important than me.
Forget it, i don'twant your money anymore.
You wanna keep that little sum of money to yourself, be my guest.
By this, you'll owe me your whole life and it just prove your integrity is only worth that much.
PS.Not that i wanna say such rude words. I just wanna wake you up. Do you even know what you're doing?
PS.Come on,i know you're not like this. Many people told me you are but i still don't believe. Prove them wrong won't ya?
Hasn't it always been that when you owe someone money, you'll return the person as soon as possible?( Unless you're some asshole who can't bear to part with his/her money )
Hmmm, what ah peh told me really shocked me.
You can't bear to return MY money back to ME.
Isn't it amazing? And you jolly well know what those money were spent on.
WHY THE FUCK HAVE YOU CHANGED SO MUCH?
Like seriously, i don't even recognise you when i see you now. You're not MY **** anymore, you're THE **** now. Seriously, if you didn't went in that class, get close with that kinda people, think?
What will we be now?
I'm really very disappointed, as a friend, as a person.
What happened?
Even your money now is much more important than me.
Forget it, i don'twant your money anymore.
You wanna keep that little sum of money to yourself, be my guest.
By this, you'll owe me your whole life and it just prove your integrity is only worth that much.
PS.Not that i wanna say such rude words. I just wanna wake you up. Do you even know what you're doing?
PS.Come on,i know you're not like this. Many people told me you are but i still don't believe. Prove them wrong won't ya?
<3 8:06 PM.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
WATCH OUT FOR PHOTO SPAM!
Been going home very late lately. Haha.Was at airport overnight till 6 today morning.
Damn tired! But we had fun(:(:(:(:(: Brandon came halfway. Me and Q webcam like siao!
Those are like a little outta 200plus. Haha! Nothing much to say. BYE!
<3 9:51 PM.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
I'm meeting my this pretty little cousin tomorrow! Happy Happy(:
It's been a long time since i met her:D Hahaha.
SEE YOU SOON GAL!
<3 9:21 PM.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Today's lessons are so boring! I seriously can't stand ms kwee-.- Slept thru most of the lessons cause i only reached home at around 1 Midnight yesterday. Lunched with Amanda, Teck, Chris, Caius and Lu Tian at singpost. SOMEBODY WAS STALKING ME TO SINGPOSY EH RAE? HAHAHA! Cabbed with teck to kovan and i bought my book!:D Homed after that.
Just some thoughts: I really think GR is a very happening and fun class. I seriously love this class more than
DL and maybe BN cause not all BN are spontaneous like this whole class. Just that
there are so many conflicts! I don't like:( SO ALL GR'S! LET'S STAY HAPPY
TOGETHER! Promise promise eh?
Just some thoughts: I really think GR is a very happening and fun class. I seriously love this class more than
DL and maybe BN cause not all BN are spontaneous like this whole class. Just that
there are so many conflicts! I don't like:( SO ALL GR'S! LET'S STAY HAPPY
TOGETHER! Promise promise eh?
Was taken in '07
I miss this retarded happy Yi Ling here!
<3 6:12 PM.
Friday, April 9, 2010
Hey, i read this from ohsofickle.blogspot.com. I'm like a so called faithful reader of her blog cause she's going thru the same situation as i am but got outta it when she got a new boyfriend. Those broken hearted peeps out this. READ ON!!!!!!!!!(: It's so trueeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Excerpt from It's Called a Breakup Because It's Broken
by Greg Behrendt and Amira Ruotola-Behrendt
"There's no doubt about it-breakups suck. But in the first few hours or days or weeks that follow, there's one important truth you need to recognize: Some things can't and shouldn't be fixed, especially that loser who dumped you or forced you to dump him. It's over for a reason, and deep down inside you probably know what that reason is.
At the end of the day, it's about weather YOU like yourself enough to face the reality that your romance wasn't working.. to recognize that it wasn't giving you what you needed and deserved
Life's biggest rewards come from the biggest challenges.
Anyone who assesses you or your realtionship as "disposable" is not worthy of your time or tears.
Just remember, though, that any reasons you come up with are ultimately irrelavant. The harsh reality is that even if you have EVERYTHING else in common, the one thing you don't have in common is the belief that this realtionship can work. & that alone trumps your shared love of puppies, The Dave Matthews Band, and Mexican food.
A lot of the pain you are experiencing right now is actually fear. Fear of things being different then how you liked them, fear of never finding love again, fear of being alone, fear of having to fill your time differently. We're afraid of the unknown.
The person you loved took a good long look at the awesomeness that is you, evaluated your relationship together, and said, "No, thanks. I'll try my luck elsewhere." Or you said it to him. Either way, that alone should make you realize that it wasn't a match made in heaven
"I don't know" means "NO!"
"I don't know" means "I'm too cowardly to tell you the truth because I can't deal with confrontation."
"I don't know" means please do the dirty work for me becasue I don't want to hurt your feelings even more then I already have.
Awesome thought: The annoying thing that your ex did will never bother you again. I'm sure that your plan to get him back worked out in your head. I'm even sure that it worked out in some movie you saw. But your ex does not have the time to follow a movie script and you shouldn't either. Move on.
Every moment of pain, weakness, and discomfort puts you in a positon to choose how you will react and how you will alleviate your condition. Calling him doesn't make it better.. it only pulls you back into the cycle of heartbreak.
He is the past. You are the future.
Messing up his life isn't the best revenge. It's getting on with yours and living it to the fullest.
One of the suckiest and most frustrating facts of life is that sometimes rela tionships just end, often without reason. I truly believe that some times both men and women simply run out of love, even when there was a lot of it in the beginning.
Before you look for validation in others, try and find it in yourself.
As much as it sucks, you need to FORCE youself to remember your very worst times together, ..his most irritating habits and the hard truth that not only can he live without you.. but he'd rather.
You're giving an okay guy who cheats on his girlfriend a hell of a lot more credit then he deserves. He's a coward and a betrayer of not one but TWO women. He clearly feels ambivalent about you at best.. otherwise, he would have left this other woman a long time ago.
So many of us find ourselves saying "BUT HE WAS SO GREAT!" Yes, and the people who got on the Titanic thought they were going on vacation. Things changed and it's important to remember that they did.
Awesome thought: The right guy is out there right now, wondering when he's going meet someone just like you.
His regrets or lack thereof are exactly that- his . and not even the best little black cocktail dress can change that.
Every time you see him, you only make youself vulnerable to futher heartache. Do you really need further proof that he's getting on with his life without you?
The one who dumped you has had a huge head start on the healing. However long he entertained ending the realationship is also how long he's been emotionally extracting himself from you.
He was either partially or totally over it before you even knew it was going down
You weren't in the same realationship. That should answer ALL your questions.
You can love your friends.. ..you can love your family ... you can even love every stray dog or stray drummer that crosses your path. HOWEVER, you have to learn how to love yourself, like yourself, and put yourself first before you will ever find the healthy, loving, and lasting realtionship that you've been looking for."
Excerpt from It's Called a Breakup Because It's Broken
by Greg Behrendt and Amira Ruotola-Behrendt
"There's no doubt about it-breakups suck. But in the first few hours or days or weeks that follow, there's one important truth you need to recognize: Some things can't and shouldn't be fixed, especially that loser who dumped you or forced you to dump him. It's over for a reason, and deep down inside you probably know what that reason is.
At the end of the day, it's about weather YOU like yourself enough to face the reality that your romance wasn't working.. to recognize that it wasn't giving you what you needed and deserved
Life's biggest rewards come from the biggest challenges.
Anyone who assesses you or your realtionship as "disposable" is not worthy of your time or tears.
Just remember, though, that any reasons you come up with are ultimately irrelavant. The harsh reality is that even if you have EVERYTHING else in common, the one thing you don't have in common is the belief that this realtionship can work. & that alone trumps your shared love of puppies, The Dave Matthews Band, and Mexican food.
A lot of the pain you are experiencing right now is actually fear. Fear of things being different then how you liked them, fear of never finding love again, fear of being alone, fear of having to fill your time differently. We're afraid of the unknown.
The person you loved took a good long look at the awesomeness that is you, evaluated your relationship together, and said, "No, thanks. I'll try my luck elsewhere." Or you said it to him. Either way, that alone should make you realize that it wasn't a match made in heaven
"I don't know" means "NO!"
"I don't know" means "I'm too cowardly to tell you the truth because I can't deal with confrontation."
"I don't know" means please do the dirty work for me becasue I don't want to hurt your feelings even more then I already have.
Awesome thought: The annoying thing that your ex did will never bother you again. I'm sure that your plan to get him back worked out in your head. I'm even sure that it worked out in some movie you saw. But your ex does not have the time to follow a movie script and you shouldn't either. Move on.
Every moment of pain, weakness, and discomfort puts you in a positon to choose how you will react and how you will alleviate your condition. Calling him doesn't make it better.. it only pulls you back into the cycle of heartbreak.
He is the past. You are the future.
Messing up his life isn't the best revenge. It's getting on with yours and living it to the fullest.
One of the suckiest and most frustrating facts of life is that sometimes rela tionships just end, often without reason. I truly believe that some times both men and women simply run out of love, even when there was a lot of it in the beginning.
Before you look for validation in others, try and find it in yourself.
As much as it sucks, you need to FORCE youself to remember your very worst times together, ..his most irritating habits and the hard truth that not only can he live without you.. but he'd rather.
You're giving an okay guy who cheats on his girlfriend a hell of a lot more credit then he deserves. He's a coward and a betrayer of not one but TWO women. He clearly feels ambivalent about you at best.. otherwise, he would have left this other woman a long time ago.
So many of us find ourselves saying "BUT HE WAS SO GREAT!" Yes, and the people who got on the Titanic thought they were going on vacation. Things changed and it's important to remember that they did.
Awesome thought: The right guy is out there right now, wondering when he's going meet someone just like you.
His regrets or lack thereof are exactly that- his . and not even the best little black cocktail dress can change that.
Every time you see him, you only make youself vulnerable to futher heartache. Do you really need further proof that he's getting on with his life without you?
The one who dumped you has had a huge head start on the healing. However long he entertained ending the realationship is also how long he's been emotionally extracting himself from you.
He was either partially or totally over it before you even knew it was going down
You weren't in the same realationship. That should answer ALL your questions.
You can love your friends.. ..you can love your family ... you can even love every stray dog or stray drummer that crosses your path. HOWEVER, you have to learn how to love yourself, like yourself, and put yourself first before you will ever find the healthy, loving, and lasting realtionship that you've been looking for."
<3 9:22 PM.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
It's 6.45 now and i'm still thinking if i wanna go to school. Damn xiannnnnnnn!
My both sisters are quarrelling now in front of me and i'm feeling damn fucked up.
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Where are you?
My both sisters are quarrelling now in front of me and i'm feeling damn fucked up.
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Where are you?
<3 6:46 AM.
