Thursday, July 30, 2009

SAY EXACTLY WHATS ON YOUR MIND & DON'T CHANGE IT.

1. You & your ex - He knows it.
2. What are you listening to - Feng by jay chou
3. Maybe I should – Forget and move on.
5. I don't understand - Why can't i do that?
6. I have lost my respect for – Someone's mum.
7. I last ate – Rice.

IS YOUR/ARE YOU:
1. Is your hair wet? - Yes
2. Is your cell phone right by you? - Yup
3. Do you miss someone? - Greatly.
4. Are you wearing chap stick? - Nope, i don't.
5. Are you tired? - Absolutely.
6. Are you wearing pajamas? - Nah.
7. Are you mad? - Going mad from depression.

MORE QUESTIONS

Are you shy?
I don't think so.

Could things possibly get any better?
If only.....

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
Yes, was disappointed when i checked my phone.

Has there been anyone particular on your mind at all today?
Yes, every single day.

Do you ever crack your knuckles/ back/ ankles/ wrists/ etc?
Of course.

Could you date someone taller than you?
That's a must.

Do you need to say anything to someone?
I have many things i wanna say.

Honestly, does your crush like you back?
I wish.

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
Yup.

Do you wear glasses?
Yes.

Lyrics from the song you're listening to?
Check it out yourself.

Did you go outside for more than 30 minutes today?
Yeah.

Honestly, what's running through your mind?
The past, him.

Have you ever asked a girl for advice?
Yes.

Ever kissed under water?
I guess so.

When was the last time you were told you were cute?
A few days ago.

How late did you stay up last night?
10plus.

Do you think boys truly understand girls?
If they were meant for each other.

What is one word you seem to always misspell that you know you shouldn't?
Priority.

What was the last movie you watched?
Coming soon.

Last song played more than three times?
Thinking of you.

Last fall asleep with?
My doggy.

Ever skipped class?
Definately.

What colour is your room?
Blue.

Who did you have lunch with?
Teddy, amanda and jia ying.

Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating?
My family?

Are you ticklish?
Always.

Does your ex have a job?
Nope.

How many piercings do you have?
One on each ear.

Have you held hands with anybody in the past week?
Yeah.

Do you want any tattoos?
Nope.

Will you cry at your wedding?
We will see.

Are you wearing any clothes that don’t belong to you?
No

What are your plans for the weekend?
Shuttle and exorcism?

You have to get a facial piercing, what do you get?
Not interested.

Do you have a little sister?
Nope.

Do you like Taylor Swift?
Love her.

Last time you were heart broken?
I am now-.-

Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
Closed.

Have you ever dated a soccer player?
Nope. Basketballer?

Do you hope your children are like you one day?
Of course, it's me:P

Do you take walks often?
Every single day.

Needles aren't so horrible?
Yup

Do you like meeting new people?
Yeah!

Would you rather have long or short hair?
Long.

Favourite book that was made into a movie?
Harry Potter.

Do you like tattoos and piercings?
Yes.

What would you do if the door bell rang and it was Lil' Wayne?
Who cares?

Labels: What you said today pierced through my heart.

<3 9:27 PM.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

I've tried.
What else can i do?
You never even took notice of me.
I'm just nobody,
nobody at all.
Really,
it's time.
For me to totally give you up.
I'm coping much better now.
Don't worry about me.
I'm fine:)

你要我说多难看？
我根本不想分开

我不难过，
这不算什么
只是为什么
眼泪会流
我也不懂

我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不趁爱过

我爱的人
不是我的爱人

有许多事
让泪水洗过更明白

忍不住想要爱你的冲动

There are many other things i wanna say
I don;t know how else.
Goodness,
spare meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

<3 9:12 PM.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Tuition at 12 just now.
Took bus to meet karwai and i went hazel's house to get homework.
After that,
we walked to bas!
SUPER HOT LAH THE WEATHER-.-
Watched ah ma's match.
After that ate at the hawker centre there and it's xiao hei's match
OMGGGGGGG!
JIAJIA IS SUPER DUPER LI HAI!!!!!!!!
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!
Feel so honoured to have played ball with her before:P
And i saw my idol there!!!
Dominic is so pro!!!!
If only i know him myself^^
Heeeeeeeee:P
Stayed there till around 8.30
Home-ed and here i am.
I'm so dead!
Not done with english but i promised Mr. Kek that i would do it by this week:(

I've been very happy these few days!
Thank you thank you thank you thank you!:D
You know who you are<33333333333
Please cheer up!!:D

<3 9:44 PM.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Do you know how much it hurt?
I was the one who asked you first
But you gave that chance to them
I've left you alone for so damn long
Just needed some time alone
You said you will be tired
Thats why i left you alone
Who know things would turn out this way
I really realised if i'd stop bothering about you
I'll be so much happier
Much much happier
But why izzit i can't let go?
I've someone who treats me like a treasure
Why ain't i treasure him too?

<3 10:18 PM.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Today is a nice day:) Quarrelled with yang during geography today.
She asked me why must i fight with her. HAHS!
Who was the one who ignored my first? Stupid teacher-.-
Had a long and draggy day, couldnt wait for the day to end.
Met bballers for lunch and to bball court after that as we had DSA trials.
OHYA! I didnt realise that its jiaolian's birthday tomorrow till someone told me!
Haha, so we had kaline, anna and mariana running out to get a cake before training started. SOMEONE SHOWED ME ATTITUDE TODAY
JUST CAUSE HE WAITED FOR ME FOR ONLY HALF AN HOUR-.-
Idiot boy, and he left me up on the double decker bus
and only text-ing me when we were reaching the stop.
Of course angry right? Haha, but after that was fine.
Watched 4bia and i thought it was stupid-.- Some aeroplane thingy.
MY COMPUTER DOESNT LIKE ME, INSTEAD, IT LIKES SOMEONE ELSE BETTER:X
Even computer also want to bully me:(
Didnt eat for the whole day
and my tummy's hurting like crap now:(
Save me!

<3 9:13 PM.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Why am i still thinking of you?
Even dreams dont let me off,
nightmare of you and me?
Crappy
Should have gone to school today
at least i wouldnt have dreamt about something so terrible
I really dont know how can you forget about what
we went through for the past 3years
Sister told me,
is not that you've forgotten
It's just that you dont feel the same way anymore

<3 4:11 PM.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

I was super happy yesterday!:D
Had lunch with BN peeps and
its been such a long time since we gathered
together so happily
Realised many of us changed but
we still had fun!:D
Hmmm,
met up with little superboy
played ball and he's super crap-.-
BUT!
I had lots of fun:D:D:D:D:D

Realised im really happy although you're not with me
Am not gonna care anymore
Since you're so happy now
We can pretend nothing had happened before
But,
i will not ttreat you the same anymore
Im really disgusted with you inside out
A little part of me is still struggling with the fact that we've come to this point
but, continue sinking deeper and i will never get outta this hole
So,
i've to let go!!!:)
Not bothering on you and checking on you
isnt because i dont care
It's because if i did that
i would be more sad
and
i know that you will never want me back the same way as i do

<3 5:45 PM.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

CRAPPY!!
I WAS PEEPED AT WHEN I WAS BATHING!
FUCKING MALAY MAN!
FUCK YOU!
UGHHH!
IM SO DISGUSTED!:(
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!!!!
AND TAN ZHI SEN THINKS ITS FUNNY!;/
I DONT LIKE YOU!!!

<3 9:44 PM.

Somebody's been an idiot today-.-
Bullying me and suan-ing me
You can be jailed for that tan zhi sen!
Retribution man!
Somebody spammed me 30plus msges!
And he's a joke!
Hahs
Something happened to my granddad
Rather not talk about it
Had fun today all in all:D
Monday monday monday!:D
And you know what?
I fucking hate you now
Seriously,
don't ever appear in front of me anymore
The sight of you makes me disgusted
Will not tear for you no more
Will not beg you no more
FUCK OFF BASTARD!

<3 12:33 AM.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Looking into your eyes and i've got a shock
Who's this guy im looking at-.-
No longer regconise who you are
No longer know you anymore
I miss you,
terribly
Difficult day i had
How wish i do not have to see you
Maybe it'll be better
When i look at you,
it's still the same you,
same hair, same actions,
same walking style, same smile

However,
i know all those are not for me to hold
or
admire anymore
When i saw you walked past,
i really had an urge to jump on you
like how i used to do and hug you
I miss you piggy backing me,
i miss you whispering into my ears
when you know that i feel the itch there
I wanna play tickling with you on my bed,
i wanna fall asleep in your arms,
i want to see you crazily in love with me again

Wishful thinking is all i can,
we will not get back like before anymore
Its just a me without a you again
Pardon me for speaking my mind
But i feel like im gonna explode soon
if i do not speak my mind
I will hang on....
1 day down and 3 more days
I can do it!!!
And after that,
another break where i can recharge myself
and face the cruelty of the world
Do you know how much i love you?

Labels: Friday

<3 7:29 PM.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Will only speak what i wana say in a place that
only you and i both know..
Still not me,
will not be blogging soon
3 months maybe?

P.S: i still love you

<3 10:13 PM.

Friday, July 3, 2009

Rather eventful day today
Played ball with many good players at Seng Kang
Kembangan open players, HomeU players etc.
After playing with jia jia,
I realised she's reallyy damn good!!
No wonder ah ma will admire her
Haha
Realised im very stiff playing ball
and
I SUCK-.-
Seriously,
no confident in taking the team next year:/
OH YA!
I MADE A BIG DISCOVERY A FEW DAYS AGO!
TAN ZHI SEN FROM AHS BBALL IS MISS MONG'S COUSIN!
OMG!
I WAS SO SHOCKED WHEN HE TOLD ME THAT!
HAHAHA!
Super funny..

Oh ya
AND IM REALLY SICK-.-
DAMN IT!
THROAT HURTS LIKE CRAP:/
I WANNA BE WELL!

I dont think i will posting any soon
I cant feel myself in me anymore
I will post when im me again
The Sng Yi Ling before all this started
Ciaos people!!!
DONT MISS ME:D

life means nothing without you,
but i know that i must do this
why do i still love you when you dont even care?
i wanna get on with my life
i want to be happy
but i dont know how to do them without you

<3 7:52 PM.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Cheryl just called to look for ah peng
How sweet..
People had done that for me before
However,
that person wasnt you
No matter how much i wanted it to be you
Jy pulled me away as quickly as she can when i was in grand audi
said she didnt want me to see something that will affect my mood
Will wait for you no more
There will just be me from now on
Ciaos to you, Alex Lee Chin Soon
My ever once so wonderful boyfriend
for the past 2years..

Labels: Goodbye my love

<3 11:40 PM.

Feeling a little sick now
Haiz,
Dont know if i should go to school tml
If im still not feeling well when i wake up,
i shouldnt ba
Life's not too bad now
Just bits and pieces of me i need to pick up
Then,
i can really be myself and move on happily
Not really happy now though
Im trying my best
Im really trying my best
I will not be stuck you with you anymore
Even though things are at this point now,
you still do not change and trying salvaging it
Conclusion?
You do not love me anymore
Seeing you flirt,
seeing you get close to many gals
makes me feel disgusted!
Seriously, FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU!
All im feeling now is just anger and im freaking disgusted
FUCKING DISGUSTED!

Just let me go will you? if you're not intending to do anything than why still call and text me?
Dont bother me anymore.. Im really feeling damn terrible.. Give me a hole and i will
burrow into it.. nothing will change if you do not do anything and just lead your life happilly..
Maybe i've always been one sided.. i should change... really should change.. get over you.............

<3 6:05 PM.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Just came home from the doctor
$61 gone, fly fly away-.-
Time to eat medicine
Bad bad day
Thanks for showing me attitude today
Dont bother each other then
Bastard,
like seriously
Haiz,
met vp myself today
The young one,
she's really very nice:D
She says she trust me
and she wont want to see me in sec3 again next year
Haha
Blog again leta!!

You dont deserve another chance
I hate you hate you hate you hate you hate you hate you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:X
NEVER MIND!! I WILL FORGET YOU! I WILL!
so what even if i still love you
so what even if i still miss you
will you change?
i dont want to throw myself at you anymore
darling,
this is not the ending that i want
do you remember you asked me to marry you last time?
when we were only in sec1
sweet memories i can say
never would i expect we would end up litat
stupid dumbdumb,
i can only say
i've given you this much
but you've never cherish it
i've never regretted loving you

<3 5:27 PM.

Oh no,
no no no no no no no
Its 2 in the morning and im like an owl
Eyes wide open!
Mum's having gastric and its very serious
Think i'll be bringing her to the doc soon
Poor mummy:(
Haiz
When i see her in such pain,
i can see myself 20years down the road
with the same gastric problem
Hope my gastric would get better and not worsen
I'm alr having signs of a ''spoiled'' gastric
AND IT SUCK!
Guess i wont be able to sleep tonight
Dont be shock to see a ghostly yi ling tml:D
CIAO!:D

EDIT:

Hellooooooooooo!
My mum's feeling better and there's no need for any doctor here
Okay,
i've just drank my 2nd bowl of bird's nest today-.-
My mum gave it to me when she cant eat due to gastric
Okay,
So now
No more visiting the doc = no more excuse for sleeping late:(
I guess i'll try to sleep now!
Goodnight World:O

Labels: do you understand?

<3 1:47 AM.