Friday, October 30, 2009

Say hello to : YI LING THE CO GAL !

Okay, i hope today will be a turning point for me.
Yes, i retained-.-
Actually i was hoping i could at least advance. But luck wasn't on my side.
And to those who don't understand why i retained or what happened to me,
please keep your mouth shut and keep your comment to yourself.
You people think you're damn smart,
but you're not.
Yeah,
so what even if i deserve this?
So what if it's my fault that i retained?
You think you're great cause you cleared this year and got promoted?
I'm not as lucky as you,
family problems, relationship problems, studies problems.
Do i ask for it?
Yes, i admit i made a big mistake during sec1.
Making me over reliant on him cause of my family, putting him as my first priority.
Causing me to fall hard when he left.
I FUCKING SCREW THIS WHOLE YEAR UP !
I've let many people down, especially miss mong, miss anisa, my parents.
I really hate you..............
But why do i still love you?
Fuck it !

"Women need a reason to have sex. Men just need a place." - Billy Crystal

Somehow i feel that it's true. Disgusted-.-

<3 9:21 PM.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I don't know why there is two of the same picture:(

LOOK AT HER CANDID SHOT !:P

Slept rather late yesterday night.

Was talking to teddy on the phone laughing at that cow !

HAHAHA! HIS COUSIN ROCKS MAN! LOL.

Played bubble in class today.

First Time:

Serene Lee: Why are there bubbles in class?

Me: Oh, fly in from outside ( SHE ACTUALLY BELIEVED! HAHAHA! )

Second Time:

Me: Halfway blowing the bubble.

Serene Lee: I believe now that the bubbles doesn't fly in from outside right?

HAHAHA! SHE SUPER CUTE RIGHT! LOL !

Went to CR to play bubble after school.

Had so much fun,

look at the photos and you'll know^-^ ( especially sj and serene )

I really have a strong feeling i'll retain.

Haiz...................

And you never once consoled me on your own.

You NEVER care anymore.

I HATE YOU............................................

Though i hope you're feelings better after you put your braces.

Remember to eat soft stuffs okay?

Don't greedy greedy tou chi okay?

Take care..........

<3 8:50 PM.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Went to town in the afternoon yesterday,
Sakae for lunch and home-ed.
Slacked and watch my fu qi you an kang and off i went to blk 85 for supper.
Cabbed over and that stupid taxi uncle ! SO BIAN TAI!-.-
Met my sister and her friends.
Louis boy is so cute, thomas is damn funny, eelen is very crazy !
Haha, had alot of fun with them.
They came my house for mahjiong session!:D
Played till morning 6.
Actually wanna go roller bladding but we were too tired.
Oh well.
Woke up by fiona at 1.
She was already outside my house !
Ks came after that that and we went compass to eat.
Serene came and we came home to play mahjiong again !:D
I won 30plus from this morning session, YEAH:D
Lastly,
one old english photo of me(:

Loi shi jing, please be okay soon.
I don't want to see you like this:(
YOU BETTER GET OKAY FAST!

I don't know why i'm still giving myself false hope.
Why the fuck am i so stupid?
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I AM THE STUPID ONE-.-

<3 9:57 PM.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Why do i feel so useless?
I want everything to turn out right.
I want to be happy.
I want all of us to promote.
I want us to be like how we were las time,
i want sj and zy to get back tgt,
i wasnt ks and henry to get back tgt,
i want......................
i want......................
i want......................
I HATE LIFE!
I HATE ALL THESE !
I FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING HATE ALLLLLL THESE!

<3 10:57 PM.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Seoul Garden yesterday with fiona and Shi Jing.

Super hilarious, we were laughing like mad.

AND WOAH !

FIONA AND SJ SURE CAN EAT ALOT !

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!

Walked around after that and took bus home with sj and fiona.

Sj got down first leaving me and fiona.

I was so tired that i fell asleep.

In the end i woke up lying on fiona's shoulder.

LOL, so weird right?

Haha.

Today was result day.

SUCK COCK MAN MY RESULTS!!!!!!
I'm sure to retain:(:(:(:(:(:(:(I DON'T WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haiz......

Soccer interclass after school.

Very funny lah.

Hahaha.

Although we lost but great game okay DL-ians (:

KFC after that with fiona serene and regina.

Laugh like shit again.

Home-ed after that.

What fiona said today made me think alot.

She said me and you really look good together, very compatible.

Many people told me that before.

Thinking we would last very long.

But the most unexpected thing happened,

you lost your feelings for me.

Why?:(

<3 8:13 PM.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

You must fucking hate me now.
I'm sorry, really sorry.
There's really nothing between me and him.
I've always treated him as a friend.
I still love alex and no one else.
I hope you understand.
I just got you back as a friend.
I don't want anything to happen again.
Friendship means alot to me now.
I will never ever do things that hurt my friends.
Sorry......

<3 10:47 PM.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

I've loved you for almost 3years and still counting.
Love came and it left.
Why am i so vulnerable then?
I shall not give myself anymore false hope.
There is no more love.
Just pity, guilt, habit and familarity.
One sentence of yours spoilt my whole day.
I'm someone with feelings, if you wanted something to be done, tell me beforehand.
I'm not a worm in your stomach. I don't know when you can take jokes when you can't.
I don't ask for anything. Ain't our day out ytd good? Just be like that always?

<3 9:54 PM.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Went to the ZOO today with alex.

Had always wanted to go there with him since sec1.

FINALLY WE WENT THERE:D

Cabbed over to the zoo and our journey started.

Haha.

Walked around the whole zoo and it was damn humid.

Perspire lots and my legs were so tired.

Haha.

Stupid boy kept scaring me with lizards-.-

In the end he got scared by butterfly himself.

LOL RIGHT!? HAHAHA!

I'm so tired now, but happy(:

Let the photos do the talking.

Goodnight:D

PS: LIM RENA TOLD ME THAT SHE MISSES ME AND CAN'T SLEEP WITHOUT ME !

SO SWEEEEEEEEEEET:D:D:D

<3 10:20 PM.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Today is a day filled with tears and joy and a pact:D
I love my friends alot alot.
They are there for me even till this point of time.
Haha.
Pictures can be seen at SJ's blog !
To Ks: I'm really sorry. I know you must be feeling damn sad/betrayed.
To fiona: Cheer up, don't think it's stupid anymore okay?
To Shi Jing: WE SHALL LET GO TGT ! ONCE AND FOR ALL !(:
TO ALL: NO HIDING OR BREAKING THE RULES OF THE PACT OR ELSE..... $5!!!
You no longer care anymore.
You're really that heartless.

<3 11:10 PM.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

‘’ 如果命中注定你要留级就是要留级，不要想那么多了‘’
Said by both of my parents. Cool eh?
Here i am so damn worried,
there they are so chilled about everything-.-
I don't want to retain:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
At least i have parents who are so underdstanding.
LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE THEM:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Papers till now are -.-'''
I just hope to promote:X
I see so many people getting out and growing strong,
i'm sure i'm able to do it too.
Hey gal, you too okay?( You know who you )
I spend all so many nights, thinking how you did me wrong but i grew strong, i learn how to carry on(:

PS: Fiona, cheer up okay? Everything will turn out right! Smiley!(:

<3 7:22 PM.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

My mama told me what ah peh said about him.
Goodness-.-
I'm super disgusted by what i heard.
You were always that Mr.Nice guy in my eyes,
i guess i was wrong-.-
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
I feel damn stupid-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-
YES! LUCKY THERE'S NO MORE YOU IN MY LIFE!
Phewwwww.
I don't know why,
but when i woke up today,
when i passed by your house today,
i don't feel anything anymore.
Like i'm outta this little black box that trapped me for so long.
Yeah man~ Heeeee~
Taiwan? HERE I COME:D:D:D:D

<3 11:11 PM.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Went to my Mi Mi Ji Di after physics spa today.
Was rather okay.
I love that place. Although there's alot of ants-.-
I feel comfortable there.
I don't know why.
Been really nice to my 2 favourite apples recently.
Haha.
I very long never accidentally smack, kick, throw, slap, punch apples down the bed le:D
Is really accident lor.
Every morning i wake up looking at my apples(:

I realised one thing after reading the posts yesterday
and watching katy perry's ' thinking of you ' MV.
At least you're alive.
I should be contended.
I should be.........

<3 8:58 PM.

Monday, October 5, 2009

My sister gave me a tumblr link to read on.
I just don't understand.
Why can't people treasure their loved ones?
Don't people realised how hard izzit to have someone to love you all as much as you love them?
Must they wait till the other party is dead than they are willing to say the 3 words?
' I love you '
Do not be afraid of saying these 3 words.
You will never know when it will be too late.
http://oiseaublanche.tumblr.com/
Give it a read if you all want.
Rather lengthy blog though.

Went past your house twice today.
I'm still having that fear in me.
I've been thinking, thinking lots and lots.
Memories are all coming back.
Like the spaghetti i made today.
Made me recall how i used to cook for you,
the first ever dish that i made for you.
How you're not afraid of me getting fat
and feeding me with alllllllllll my favourite food.
Memories,
all those are memories.
You can never take all those away from me.
You may not love me,
you may never be by my side or be there for me anymore.
But,
you can never ever take my memories of us away from me.

<3 10:32 PM.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

First of all,
LOI SHI JING! PLEASAE BE OKAY SOON!
I MISS YOUR SMILE:( I don't know how to talk to you know:(
Been webcamming with rubbish every night recently.
Having tuition every other day too.
So tiring.
Have to run back and forth from my house to harbour front.
And not a very pleasant either.
Makes me remember lots of stuffs.
Went to temple ytd, rubbish came along.
YOU MUST BE HONOURED OKAY!
I never bring anyone there before hor.
Haha.
He went home around 11.30.
TIRED!
Tuition again today.
For 3hours-.-
After that went to tampines to look for my mama.
She was singing getai.
East coast after that for dinner at waraku.
Super full:D
what can i do now? you're not mine anymore.
it's been 17days since you last hugged/kissed me.
Will you still miss me?
Will you think of me?
i wonder..........

Labels: a hug of comfort

<3 11:52 PM.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Couldn't fall asleep yesterday night and only slept for 1hour plus today.
Woke up and stupid rubbish said he was coming to my house to go school together today.
When i haven even step in the shower he say he reach le-.-
Make me chiong like hell.
Haiyo.
English paper was bad.
If my english fail i can say goodbye to sec4 alr:(
Was super xian about this the whole afternoon.
Waited for rubbish to end and we went compass to do study.
Thanks kelvin for keeping me accompany for that 1 hour(:
Wah,
and i realised the 2 of them add up together is really bth man-.-
Something happened on the bus and rubbish kept pestering me to post but
I'M NOT GONNA DO SO:D
Haha.
Studied till 7 and i found my new
MI MI JI DE(:
I totally love that place.
Quiet, nice scenery, good ventilation!
Love it(:
Was there till about 9 with rubbish.
Haha.
That was an unexpected hug from you.

<3 12:13 AM.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Yesterday chem spa was not bad.
Have to thank miss anisa for teaching me the day before.
Went to study with rubbish and sj at serangoon after that.
They walked me home to change and we walked to 163 bus stop to send rubbish off.
On the way there,
sj and rubbish was DAMN SICK lah-.-
Eeyer.
Haha.
Walked sj to 70 bus stop and home i went.
Ate, shower and web-cammed with rubbish till 6.
He watched me to sleep while he watched soccer.
Was super duper uber emo banana yesterday night.
Xiannnnnn.
Having english paper tomorrow.
Damn it.
I'm starting to feel the pressure now-.-
Think rubbish fell asleep.
Stupid lor.
Everyone is asleep now.
Xiannnnn plus xiannnnnn.

<3 11:57 PM.