Woke up at 10 today,
i don't know why but everytime i wake up,
i couldn't help but think of you.
Oh well:X
Went to factory to pray for the 7th month.
Uncle was there.
Said '' You''ll be fine after this season''
Actually i don't know what he means:P
After that,
my dad sent me to compass to take 27 to meet Sj, teddy and horsey.
We walked around tampines and i bought a book!:D
Took 31 to sj's house and we were camwhoring on the bus.
Super funny!
We took alot and many came out unglam-.-
Will post the pics soon!
Ate at old airport hawker centre.
Saw the ball machine when i went to the second floor toilet,
brought back lots of memories.
Played at the playground beside kw's house.
Super fun!
Teddy and horsey was pushing me sj and fiona.
Fun fun fun!
Walked to mcc to play ball afterwards.
Me and teddy VS don't know who.
Haha.


Teddy: She hates everyone(implying me)
Me: No, i love alex! HAHAHA!


Funniest convo of the day!




UNBEAUTIFUL BY LESLEY ROY



Don't hang up, can we talk?
So confused, it's like i'm lost.
What went wrong?
What made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know this is me.
I'm unchangeable.
When did we fall apart?
Or did you lie from the start?
When you said it's only you,
I was blind, such a fool!
Thinking we were unbreakable.


It was you and me against the world.
And you promised me forever more.
Was it something that i said?
Was it something that i did?
Cause i gotta know what made me unbeautiful.


I've been told,
what's done is done.
To let it go and carry on.
And deep inside,
i know thta's true.
I'm stuck in time,
i'm stuck on you.
We were still untouchable.

It was you and me against the world.
And you promised me forever more.
Was it something that i said?
Was it something that i did?
Cause i gotta know what made me unbeautiful.

Wake up, wake up, wake up
cause i'm only dreaming.
Get out get out get out get out get
out of my head now.
Because we're much better all together,
can't let go.


A sad song indeed.

Edit Edit:

Just got back from the doc.
Doc says i need more rest,
Exhaustion it is.
The doc gave me fever medicine which will cause drowsiness^^
I'm gonna spam it man:D

Edit:

Back from training.
My ankle and throat is hurting now.
Sat for training today,
da dui-ed a little just now.
Ate after training at ajisen,
took 43 home after that.
Goodness:X
I was hit on by this bung who has lots of piercing and tattoes!
Super scary-.-
Reached home at around 9.30!





Crap-.-
Really sick now.
Woke up with a terrible headache and a 'sexy' voice.
Have a sprained ankle, a pulled muscle at my neck
and a few bruises which hurt terribly:(
Went back to sleep but kept waking consistently.
I'm so screwed.
My attendance really cmi already.
I'm already halfway on the road to retaining.
I don't know if i should go see a doctor.
No one's home,
i'm having a sprained ankle.
How?
:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
Life suck!


What i miss now is having you by my side,
taking care of me like how you use to.
Hugging me to sleep like how you used to.

Labels: do you remember?, Girl's priority

Say bye-bye to basketball.
Say bye-bye to high heels.
Yeah-.-
Two words to describe today.
FUCK IT!
Haiz,
thought today would be a good day cause i saw a rainbow.
BAHHHHH!
TODAY IS LIKE WORSE OF ALL MAN!
What i saw today wasn't what i've expected.
It slammed hard into me and fuck,
it hurts....


I need a change of environment
a change of people around me
a change of life.
And i'm so gonna do it.
End of this year,
wish me luck in getting outta this school.

Labels: do you remember?, Hundreds of i love you

TODAY IS A SAD DAY:(:(:(:(:(:(
Woke up at 5 today and noelle came to picked me.
STUPID KENJI!
MAKE US WAIT SO LONG-.-
Reached airport and frazer's parents treated us to breakfast.
I'M DAMN SAD!!!
FRAZER IS GONE!!!!:(
I MISS HIM:(:(
Haiz,
took bus to grandlink as we wanted to sing K and play pool.
But not open-.-
In the end we wandered to a playground to slack.
Went to school nearing 10.
Haha, super cool!
8 of us walked in together and we didn't get caught.
I love miss anisa<3
She is reeeeaaaaaal nice:D



Was damn tired the whole day.
Stay-ed back to wait for kenji with serene
and she is frigging funny!!
Hahaha.
Played ball with many many people and than home.
Kenji walked me home and he damn idiot-.-
Kept forcing me to cry!!!
Say better cry when he around than at home--
Haiz.
Having his arms around me really makes me feel better.
I love my friends<3
I love them all now:)
And yes kenji,
YOU'RE A NICE FRIEND OKAY!!!

Labels: Bus plate number 10, do you remember?

Yesterday was a fun day!:D
I had lots of FUN FUN FUN!:D
Had cancer run in the morning,
wasn't really happy.
Kept getting gastric.
On and off, on and off.
Really damn idiot.
Had lunch with the basketballers
and then marine parade CC with karwai, yueying and alex.
Saw jiao lian there! HAHAHA!
Yy left after awhile and we went to the library to slack.
Off-ed to tamp to walk walk,
ate bakerzin and i left for KS's house.


First thing i did was marinate chickens!!
Haha,
and i made a new friend called Zehao!
Xiao pang is funny!:D
After getting ready,
we played in the rain and i was drenched!
Congrats to SERENE FOR BEING THE FIRST TO GET DUMPED IN THE WATER!:D:D
More people came and i was dumped in too-.-
Too many funny stuffs to be spoken!
Haha.
I was a zookeeper feeding 3 dolphins chipster!
SUPER CUTE!:D
Haha.
We took off shirt in the end cause it was super heavy-.-
Played water polo till around 9plus!
I love it!:D
Although i was emo-ing halfway till i cried,
Nevertheless,
I ENJOYED MYSELF!


Thanks BN peeps for being there for me when i needed you all to be.
I will never forget you all.
I LOVE MY FRIENDS!:D:D:D



And yep,
i will forget you.
Cause i really want to.
I hate myself for being this way.
I hate you for telling so much lie.


I didn't choose you over teddy last time cause i don't like him.
I chose you because i'm willing to give it a try.
I don't want to end thid relationship just like that.
But now,
you won't think.
You will not remember how much i've given up for you,
How much i still love you,
How much i'm hurting now.
How many more......................

Just reached home.
Watched interclass while waiting for teddy to end.
Played ball too.
Off to parkway with Sj, kenji and teddy.
Ate and waited for remus to come.
After meeting him,
we ate again at zhong huan.
Remus treated us.
So nice!
Took photos.
Upload another time.
Teddy and Sj headed for tuition
where me and kenji headed home.
Chatted alot and i realised alo alot of things.
I regretted many things too.
For now,
i just want to be happy without you.
I hope i can.

Cut my leg in stella's house today-.-
Owww!
Hurts man:(
I don't like harbour front now.
Totally hate that place:/
Haha.
My mama is so funny!
Ask me when's my last day of exam,
after the last day straight away fly overseas.
Hahaha!
Ohya,
remember your promise okay bryan wong!:)

Had friendly in the morning at dunman.
Tio thrash-.-
Never mind.
Slowly bah.
Just top 4 i hope.
Ate at T1 and picked my sister up at the airport.
She's back from thailand and she boughts lots and lots!
Haha.
Homed, sleep, bathe and out again.
Ate at ajisen with my sister and russell.
Chatted at starbucks till 10?
Back home now,


It's day 6 today,
i still miss you.
I suddenly thot of something.
因为你对人太好。
当你的朋友会爱上你，
当你的女朋友会担心。
It's really true.
That's how i've been for the past 3years.
I've learnt my lesson.
Will not love a guy who's gonna treat everyone so good.
It suck.

It's my 100th post today.
I'm not happy i don't know why.
It should have been filled with you:(
Today is a mixure of happiness and sadness.
Many people told me many things and i'm happy!
But what i saw was another,
which made me so sad that i cried during training-.-
Shouldn't have bothered in the first place.
Never mind,
it takes time.
And i'm sure i'm able to do it!:)
Had training and after that,
jiao lian treated me and karwai to punggol nasi lemak
AND
I HAD A BET WITH HIM!
JIAO LIAN,
YOU BETTER DON'T FORGET!
I'm looking forward to 4th september!!!!:D
I'm very happy!
Hahahaha!:D
Having friendly with dunman tml.
Wish me luck cause i'm damn tired-.-
Maybe going out with bryan tml,
we were once so close 2years ago.
But i gave him up as a friend for him.
I will not lose anymore friends i swear.



It's day 5 today,
and i'm not feeling any better-.-
I wanna get outta this and be happy again.
Why do i still love you?
I hate that fugly.
Who she think she is lah.
Fucking ugly bitch!
Cannot stand--''

Labels: Healing in process

It's Day 4 today,
another day gone!
I'm really trying my best!
Everytime i see you,
i don't know how to react.
But from your eyes,
i can see that i'm really just a normal friend to you now.
Hmmm,
or should i say acquaintance?
We will never be the same ever again.
I will control myself from missing you.
I'm tired of all this nonsense too.
Courage........

I'M DAMN TIRED TODAY!:(



Ps: I love you.

Labels: 你可以放心，我不会为了留你假装可怜兮兮

My sister texted me at 8.51 telling me she reached bangkok alr
AND
she's gonna shop!!!!!:X
I also want to :(
My mum's coming home tonight
like finally.
Haha.
School as usual and i didnt fall asleep!:D
The day went by quickly and it was the afternoon.
Ate lunch with bimbo, jy and yz.
Went for investiture and the funniest thing happened!
HAHAHA!
ROSY WAS SCARED BY ME
AND HIS REACTION WAS HILARIOUS!
HAHAHA!
I'm gonna spread around:D:D
After that training.
I don't know why but i'm damn tired,
it wasn't very tedious.
SJ did something stupid today too.
Haha.
I shall be nice and only tell you people if you ask me:D
NICE RIGHT!:D
Hmmm,
kaline said i was becoming more and more like a bimbo.
Wth-.-
How can you compare me with that bimbo!
HAHAHA:P
Oh yes,
To Zhi Sen: I'm really sorry for everything. Still friends!?:D


It's the third day that i've set my mind on letting you go.
It's going on quite well.
You're like a thorn pierced in my heart.
It's until now than i'm willing to pluck it out though it's been hurting for a long time.
It's still hurting now but i believe,
time really heals everything.
As days goes by,
the wound would get smaller and smaller and soon,
it woud be long forgotten.
Although there wil be a scar there,
however i will use that as a remainder to never let myself get hurt like this again.
No more second time i swear.
I guessed that you've moved on pretty well too.
I know you're glad that i've let go cause i was much of an irritant to you then.
I wll never forget the last blow you've given me to make me forget you.
Can't say you're a jerk,
but sorta litat.
'' call you or something later''
Those were the last words i've heard from you.
It really take lots of courage to do what i'm doing now.
Wish me luck if you can.
Not having anyone to wish me goodnight and good morning suck.
However,
i know that even if there's 100 people saying all those to me,
it doesn't beat having you to say that to me.
Maybe i will hide you in a corner of my heart,
hoping i will forget you.


PS: MY MAMA'S HOME WITH FRIED RICE FROM MALAYSIA! I'M HAPPY AND I'M GONNA EAT:D

You said i've insulted you
But do you know what you've done today really hurt my pride and dignity?
I also have parents.
I'm not someone born to be treated like this.
女人生下来是来疼的
I admit i'm super clingy and i have a terrible temper
but i really don't deserve this treatment.
I just don't understand how can 2years of memories just be gone in a second?
I know you do not love me anymore,
i know we can never be like before anymore.
It's time.
You're heart is really dead,
mine too.
From all the things i've tried to do to get you back.
I won't bother you anymore.
You've said,
i'm the only factor that's making your life miserable now.
You don't know how much it hurt when you said all those last night and this morning.
Though i know you don't care anymore.
I've so much so much to say,
but i don't know where to start.
How wish all this are nothing but a nightmare.
How wish i can wake up in your arms with a peck on my forehead like how you always do.
No more.
I will still miss you and i don't know if i can forget you in the near future,
but i will really try my best.
I swear i will not look for you anymore.
I will leave you alone and let you be happy.
We can't be friends either.
You don't want and it will be too much of a pain to me.
I'll let go.


It could have been ' happy 25months darling ' today.

I'm tired. Tired of hanging nowhere with no place of my own.
I just want to settle down and get things right.
Be it getting back or me finally getting over you,
i just want things to end.
Why can't you disappear from my life or me disappearing from yours?
Why let me get hurt all over and over again?
It takes two hands to clap.
If she's the one throwing herself at you,
why izzit that people are telling me you two are acting as one?
I know i should believe you,
but how am i supposed to when almost half of your class are telling me that?


I want to care no more.
I want to give this relationship up.
I want to let you go.
I want to end it here.
I want to be happy.
I want to be myself.
I WANT ALL THIS TO END!:(


Taking 30 to vivo,
taking the route we used to take.
How i wish the person beside was you.
But i know,
it'll never be you anymore.
Harbour front will never be my second home.

No more eating nice food all over the west side.
No more cycling in drizzles.
No more sleeping in your arms.
No more you coming over to stay.
No more cabbing to school for training cause we woke up late.
No more you when i have anymore problem.
No more saying our goodnight wishes.
No more swimming together.
No more sneaking up to my room.
No more apples.
No more our blog.
No more feng.
No more big big shirts to wear.
No more you carrying me in the long road to my house when i'm tired.
No more you holding my hand and leading the way.
No more you leading me to cross the road.
No more you helping to eat my leftovers.
No more wrestling till we both fall alseep.
No more tickling till all pillow, bolster and blanket drops on the floor.


There are many other no more(s) but most importantly,
there is no more you in my life ever again.
I'm saying bye to you once again.
However,
i'm serious now.
No matter how difficult it is,
I will hang in there.
Please give me courage.



I will miss you and thank you for all the pleasant and un-pleasant memories.

Labels: ex- dumbdumb's bidding goodbye

Although i'm still losing sleep and stuffs for you,
but i'm much better now:)
People have been telling me how close you and her were,
how she stands so damn near to you out of no reason,
how she will go to your place to find her and vice versa.(Fyi, almost half of your class don't like her. Even your close friends)
All i can say,
you're not worth it anymore.
Just a downright jerk because you've really changed a lot.
Disappointment.
She's ugly(said by almost everybody i asked)
She's arrogant( '' '' '' '' '' '')
She's no where comparable to me.('' ' ' '' '' '' '' '')
In conclusion,
you two match each other.
You people can say i'm saying all these cause he choose her not me
BUT SO WHAT!
I'M REALLY MUCH BETTER HER, THAT FUCKING BITCH!
Hmmm.
just take it i'm being prejudice
I just don't like her:(
DON'T LIKE HER DON'T LIKE HER DON'T LIKE HER:(
BLEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH:X


PS: My brother's being sweet by helping me carry my bag up for me:D

Labels: It's my life, it's now or never

My dad has a second degree burn on both of his legs. Super poor thing! See him litat i also heart pain lah. Helped to dress his wound today and saw how his skin was peeling and regrowing. OUCH! After helping him, accompanied my sister to the doctor and the doctor suspect that it might be H1N1!(hini) HAHAHA! If only i can get it too! Hmmm, actually if i've done what i said on the previous post, my conscience will definately bug me. Sooooooooooooooo, i'm not gonna do it. Haha. Unlike him, i do have a conscience. Not alot but STILL HAVE OKAY! Haha:D Okay, i think i'm starting to crap again-.- Update another time!

PS: I realised i have many better things to do other than emo-ing and feeling jealous all the time.
As what my mum has said, karma will definately befall on people. Not only you people, even
me too. So i should just let god decide what is best for me.
好一句‘知人知面不知心’.我终于了解这句话的意识了.

PPS: I forget to say. I LOVE MRS INDRA LOTS! Hee:P You know i know heaven know hell know eh? SHHHHHHHHHHSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!:D

It's going to be 4 now and i'm still awake. My sister had a birthday party just now and her friends are still her now. We were drinking tequilla shot and it SUCK! It taste so terrible-.- Shivas and vodka taste way nicer man. Haha. My sister had 7 shot in a go and now she's dead on her bed. BUT she gave us lots of trouble before she drop dead-.- We spent almost 2 hours trying to get her up to her room and the way she acted and things she said was hilarious man! HAHAHA! It was until my mum brought her up herself than she was willing. All she said was ‘我要喝水’and ‘我很累'. And she said that like a thousand times. My sister's friend got drunk too and she splashed water at one of the guy! Damn funny too. All she say was fuck you. HAHAHA! Another one was super quiet but started crying after awhile. They made me realised something. If you were ever to get drunk, do it at home. Haha. Brought my sis up and she VOMITED ON MY HAND!! EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! I was holding the bucket for her and i felt like vomiting too:/ Cleaned her room and washed her up. Bathe and here i am. Super tired:( Ohya, my sister's friends said tzs is good-looking and i made a right choice. Hahahha. I did?

Ohya, i've never hated a person so greatly in my life before. Really a downright jerk. Now i see you, i'll only feel like bashing you up. Hammerhead shark(What my sister call you, eyes so wide apart), you suck big time! Ivan maybe? Fucking bastard!_l_

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