Saturday, July 31, 2010
Hotmail and msn got hacked.
Dont respond to any mails or chats from onezero.10@hotmail.com !!!!!
Thanks!
Will create a new one real soon.
i wonder if you really have nothing to do with this?
Izzit a way of getting revenge?
Cause you knew i'll never change my password?
What happened to us?
I seriously dont understand.
Why can't you just let me keep those mails?
Dont respond to any mails or chats from onezero.10@hotmail.com !!!!!
Thanks!
Will create a new one real soon.
i wonder if you really have nothing to do with this?
Izzit a way of getting revenge?
Cause you knew i'll never change my password?
What happened to us?
I seriously dont understand.
Why can't you just let me keep those mails?
<3 10:14 PM.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Why can't god just let me keep those few happy memories of us?
I'm so upset now.
I wanna cry now.
However, i know it's useless.
Izzit really fated?
I don't want:(
I'm so upset now.
I wanna cry now.
However, i know it's useless.
Izzit really fated?
I don't want:(
<3 10:56 PM.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
I don't like people turning into enemies because of me.
I don't like people giving me pressure.
I don't like people asking me to get together.
I don't like jealousy.
I like being myself and that's that.
I wanna live my life after what i've been thru.
I wanna be carefree, not tied down.
I wanna care about myself and no one else.
I wanna be happy.
I wanna enjoy life.
I wanna enjoy having someone to dote on me.
However by doing so, i'll be a bitch.
And by hurting people, i'll have retribution.
I don't want:(
I've had enough pain alr.
So teach me what i can do?
Care for others and make myself unhappy or care about myself and make others unhappy?
Sometimes, i would rather be a plain jane.
I don't like people giving me pressure.
I don't like people asking me to get together.
I don't like jealousy.
I like being myself and that's that.
I wanna live my life after what i've been thru.
I wanna be carefree, not tied down.
I wanna care about myself and no one else.
I wanna be happy.
I wanna enjoy life.
I wanna enjoy having someone to dote on me.
However by doing so, i'll be a bitch.
And by hurting people, i'll have retribution.
I don't want:(
I've had enough pain alr.
So teach me what i can do?
Care for others and make myself unhappy or care about myself and make others unhappy?
Sometimes, i would rather be a plain jane.
<3 10:20 PM.
Me: *Took my milk bottle from the kitchen*
Mother: Why buy a milk bottle out of the blue?
Me: * Rub my stomach* For my baby.
Mother: SO pissed that she rolled her eyes at me and walked off.
HA! In your face mother!
Hmmm, I seriously think my mother is going thru menopause.
I have totally no idea how can she be so snappy for SO long-.-
Can't believe I'm blogging like 7plus in the morning because of my mum-.-
I SERIOUSLY CAN'T TAKE IT!!!!
Mother: Why buy a milk bottle out of the blue?
Me: * Rub my stomach* For my baby.
Mother: SO pissed that she rolled her eyes at me and walked off.
HA! In your face mother!
Hmmm, I seriously think my mother is going thru menopause.
I have totally no idea how can she be so snappy for SO long-.-
Can't believe I'm blogging like 7plus in the morning because of my mum-.-
I SERIOUSLY CAN'T TAKE IT!!!!
<3 7:48 AM.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Just star gazed with kenneth at my house's rooftop.
It's been so long since i've done that.
Feels good. Haha.
Finally i trained after so long.
Although the doctor only said i could train minimal minimal minimal because i told her im bored of staring at my teammates train.
Feel double good. Haha.
Received a lot of cheesy msges today. LOL.
Suddenly realised i'm still appreciated by abundant.
So why care about a guy who doesn't even want to be my friend?
I will do my best not to care anymore, i promise:)
Oh and there's one thing i really don't understand.
Why do people like to like people with a broken heart?
Isn't it easier to like someone who has their full heart to love you back whole heartedly?
Zzzzzz.
Like that person and he/she has to reject you.
Rejecting equals to retribuation next time-.-
Hate it.
It's been so long since i've done that.
Feels good. Haha.
Finally i trained after so long.
Although the doctor only said i could train minimal minimal minimal because i told her im bored of staring at my teammates train.
Feel double good. Haha.
Received a lot of cheesy msges today. LOL.
Suddenly realised i'm still appreciated by abundant.
So why care about a guy who doesn't even want to be my friend?
I will do my best not to care anymore, i promise:)
Oh and there's one thing i really don't understand.
Why do people like to like people with a broken heart?
Isn't it easier to like someone who has their full heart to love you back whole heartedly?
Zzzzzz.
Like that person and he/she has to reject you.
Rejecting equals to retribuation next time-.-
Hate it.
<3 1:39 AM.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
This year's bazaar isnt as fun as the one 2 years ago.
Anyway, thanks for coming jowilly tanyilin qien qiyang mingyang willy and kenneth:)
There's this one day, i was talking to miss mong on msn and she told me something she told her class.
'' Nothing has changed much, i'm still calling him( her now fiance) idiot but we're engaged now.
Cool isn't it? Made me decided on a lot of things:)
She damn cute, yesterday i walked past her and she was like hi yi ling and when she saw kenneth,
she went hi kenneth damn enthusiastically. Gave him the shock of his life. Hahaha.
I have a BIG bruise on my knee now cause i landed on my knee while playing the bouncing castle.
IT WAS SO FUN! Makes me seem like i dont have any childhood. Haha.
Kenneth jowilly and yilin was like insulting me the whole way-.-
I ATE ALOT YESTERDAY!!!!!1
It's like yong tofu then steamboat then durian in LESS THAN 3HOURS!?!?!?
Seriously must lose weight alot lahhhh, Haha.
This whole week suck totally, got alot of shits from my family but i had a HTHT with my dad yestersay.
So nice and i feel so loved from my parents<3!!
Been mahjiong-ing for the past 2 nights and i guess tonight we'll be playing again? Haha!
You'll be coming tonight<3!!!!!!!!!
Anyway, thanks for coming jowilly tanyilin qien qiyang mingyang willy and kenneth:)
There's this one day, i was talking to miss mong on msn and she told me something she told her class.
'' Nothing has changed much, i'm still calling him( her now fiance) idiot but we're engaged now.
Cool isn't it? Made me decided on a lot of things:)
She damn cute, yesterday i walked past her and she was like hi yi ling and when she saw kenneth,
she went hi kenneth damn enthusiastically. Gave him the shock of his life. Hahaha.
I have a BIG bruise on my knee now cause i landed on my knee while playing the bouncing castle.
IT WAS SO FUN! Makes me seem like i dont have any childhood. Haha.
Kenneth jowilly and yilin was like insulting me the whole way-.-
I ATE ALOT YESTERDAY!!!!!1
It's like yong tofu then steamboat then durian in LESS THAN 3HOURS!?!?!?
Seriously must lose weight alot lahhhh, Haha.
This whole week suck totally, got alot of shits from my family but i had a HTHT with my dad yestersay.
So nice and i feel so loved from my parents<3!!
Been mahjiong-ing for the past 2 nights and i guess tonight we'll be playing again? Haha!
You'll be coming tonight<3!!!!!!!!!
<3 7:45 PM.
Friday, July 16, 2010
No longer friends.
I guess this is what you've always wanted.
I shouldn't have expected anything from you.
After all the shit you've been thru, this is nothing.
Stay strong sng yi ling.
I guess this is what you've always wanted.
I shouldn't have expected anything from you.
After all the shit you've been thru, this is nothing.
Stay strong sng yi ling.
<3 12:15 AM.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Many things have been happening this few days. We're like advancing so fast:)
Today is one month since we met and i've got that from him. So sweeeet<3!!
Haha. Meeting everyday since we knew each other.
I'm so confused now! Haha.
Everybody is asking me the same thing.
My sisters, my mother, my friends.
I should be fair to him too right?
<3 11:35 PM.
Monday, July 12, 2010
GO SPAIN!
I'M SUPPORTING YOU ALL
THE WAY!
TORRES IS THE BEST!
I LOVE YOU!
FIRST AND LAST TIME IM
WATCHING WORLD CUP
AND SUPPORTING A TEAM
SO PLEASE WIN!
HEARTS!!!
HAHAHAHA!
I'M SUPPORTING YOU ALL
THE WAY!
TORRES IS THE BEST!
I LOVE YOU!
FIRST AND LAST TIME IM
WATCHING WORLD CUP
AND SUPPORTING A TEAM
SO PLEASE WIN!
HEARTS!!!
HAHAHAHA!
<3 3:10 AM.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
To: Alex lee chin soon
Maybe this time i really have to let go of alex and move on with life.
My mind is like telling myself i have to continue loving alex cause i'm afraid of changes, afraid of people saying im unfaithful.
However, i ask myself. Who let me down first?
I really have to stop loving him as an obligation.
From that day he said those nasty stuffs to me, i have no more responsibility to love him and maintain the relationship anymore.
Today is 07/07.
Remember its our first 'date' because we went tampines mall to get angeeling's present and i remember we got scouted to go for modelling. Super funny! Lol.
The day i've been waiting for is coming.
10/07/10.
I remember telling myself we would last till this day and have a grand celebration cause the numbers are very nice and its our 3rd year.
Who would have expected this?
Not on talking terms, you not caring and acting like you don't know me.
I wonder if you even remember what we went through for the past 3years.
How we talked thru the night till 4plus in the morning and getting scolded by your parents.
From them disallowing till they had to resign to fate and till they scolded me, saying its all my fault.
From the start of 2007, we've started talking.
Till only 10th July 2007, that i accepted you.
I was so damn afraid that i would hurt you because i'm not sure i'm the faithful gal you've been looking for.
From knowing nothing about you, till knowing everything about you.
From your appearance to your character to your habits to your family to your friends, i know it all.
I was all so ready to get serious and even marry you, cause we were talking about it, after what happened in sec2.
Cause i sensed your love and i don't wanna let you down.
However, for god knows why, you started to change after January 2009.
After 2years of bliss and happiness, everything went down the drain.
Maybe you don't feel that there's any change in you but look back.
Compare the before you and the you now.
I don't blame you, it's our growing up stage and people do change.
You can say you've changed but you can't put the blame on me for your change.
Then July 2009 came the drama and we broke up and patched back countless of times.
We both knew it's useless even though we were trying our best.
May 2010 was the time when i really woke up.
Knowing that your love really isn't coming back.
I have to stand up, screwing my studies for a year and half is enough.
Ever since then, i tried not contacting you but time to time, i couldn't resist and even met up with you.
Turning to you once there's a problem, like always.
I even kept your jersey, nametag and badge cause i couldn't bear with it.
Now, July 2010, i've learnt to cherish myself and am not going back to my old path.
All the memories, all the feelings. I guess i'm the only one who's keeping them with me.
You've long forgotten about them, about me.
I guess you don't really remember how much i really loved you.
I loved you, more than you've ever known.
However, it's really time.
Time to let that ghost of you, who have been haunting me ever since last year, go.
Goodbye to the love of my secondary school life.
Alex Lee Chin Soon, my darling, my dumbdumb.
Take care of yourself and goodluck for your o's this year.
Am thankful for all the things you've done for me, the scoldings, for being my confidant, my love and many more. Thank you.
Am sorry for all the things i've done to hurt you, during sec2 and stuffs. I'm sorry.
I don't know about you but deep down in my heart, you'll have a secret corner to yourself, where i'll keep you well hidden and safe.
Have ample rest my love, i hate to see you looking so tired.
Remember, take good care of yourself.
ps: you know i'll still be loving you. xoxo.
your dumbdumb,
sng yi ling.
Lastly, i'm gonna post our song lyrics for the last time, i do hope that next time,
whenever you hear this song, you'll be reminded of me, of us.
楓 周杰伦
乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明
就像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看的清
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔
已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠夺天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸
缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边
Maybe this time i really have to let go of alex and move on with life.
My mind is like telling myself i have to continue loving alex cause i'm afraid of changes, afraid of people saying im unfaithful.
However, i ask myself. Who let me down first?
I really have to stop loving him as an obligation.
From that day he said those nasty stuffs to me, i have no more responsibility to love him and maintain the relationship anymore.
Today is 07/07.
Remember its our first 'date' because we went tampines mall to get angeeling's present and i remember we got scouted to go for modelling. Super funny! Lol.
The day i've been waiting for is coming.
10/07/10.
I remember telling myself we would last till this day and have a grand celebration cause the numbers are very nice and its our 3rd year.
Who would have expected this?
Not on talking terms, you not caring and acting like you don't know me.
I wonder if you even remember what we went through for the past 3years.
How we talked thru the night till 4plus in the morning and getting scolded by your parents.
From them disallowing till they had to resign to fate and till they scolded me, saying its all my fault.
From the start of 2007, we've started talking.
Till only 10th July 2007, that i accepted you.
I was so damn afraid that i would hurt you because i'm not sure i'm the faithful gal you've been looking for.
From knowing nothing about you, till knowing everything about you.
From your appearance to your character to your habits to your family to your friends, i know it all.
I was all so ready to get serious and even marry you, cause we were talking about it, after what happened in sec2.
Cause i sensed your love and i don't wanna let you down.
However, for god knows why, you started to change after January 2009.
After 2years of bliss and happiness, everything went down the drain.
Maybe you don't feel that there's any change in you but look back.
Compare the before you and the you now.
I don't blame you, it's our growing up stage and people do change.
You can say you've changed but you can't put the blame on me for your change.
Then July 2009 came the drama and we broke up and patched back countless of times.
We both knew it's useless even though we were trying our best.
May 2010 was the time when i really woke up.
Knowing that your love really isn't coming back.
I have to stand up, screwing my studies for a year and half is enough.
Ever since then, i tried not contacting you but time to time, i couldn't resist and even met up with you.
Turning to you once there's a problem, like always.
I even kept your jersey, nametag and badge cause i couldn't bear with it.
Now, July 2010, i've learnt to cherish myself and am not going back to my old path.
All the memories, all the feelings. I guess i'm the only one who's keeping them with me.
You've long forgotten about them, about me.
I guess you don't really remember how much i really loved you.
I loved you, more than you've ever known.
However, it's really time.
Time to let that ghost of you, who have been haunting me ever since last year, go.
Goodbye to the love of my secondary school life.
Alex Lee Chin Soon, my darling, my dumbdumb.
Take care of yourself and goodluck for your o's this year.
Am thankful for all the things you've done for me, the scoldings, for being my confidant, my love and many more. Thank you.
Am sorry for all the things i've done to hurt you, during sec2 and stuffs. I'm sorry.
I don't know about you but deep down in my heart, you'll have a secret corner to yourself, where i'll keep you well hidden and safe.
Have ample rest my love, i hate to see you looking so tired.
Remember, take good care of yourself.
ps: you know i'll still be loving you. xoxo.
your dumbdumb,
sng yi ling.
Lastly, i'm gonna post our song lyrics for the last time, i do hope that next time,
whenever you hear this song, you'll be reminded of me, of us.
楓 周杰伦
乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明
就像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看的清
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔
已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠夺天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸
缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边
Our best loved photo.
I guess you still remember where we took it yea?
1021.
100707.
<3 11:57 PM.
Monday, July 5, 2010
School has started and i'm still trying to get use to the waking up early part-.-
I'm cabbing everyday to school and IM SO BROKE because of that.
My friends make me look forward to school alot. Love them!:)
Saturday started w a 9plus phone call from K telling me he's outside my house. Lol!
Crapped with him till 2plus and he left for work and i left to met Qien and we did threading again!:)
And it was town after that to visit peng while she's working and brandon whose eating there.
Singapore Flyer to look for K and we helped him cause there were not enough staffs!
I SO FEEL LIKE WORKING CAUSE I WANNA EARN MY OWN MONEY:(
After his work, we bought drinks( which i so pathetically had some kid drinks-.- ) and walked a cool bridge which idk is called what. Hahaha.
Sunday busy day! BBQ--->FAMILY DINNER---->SUPPER CLUB---->DRINKING AT WEST COAST PARK---> MEETING K---->HOME !
I reached home at around 9 in the morning. Freaking tired!
Supper club wasn't fun this time round! Music suck lighting suck dance floor suck!
And my cousins drank till the seh AGAIN and i have to take care of the whole lot of them AGAIN.
This time have jiong's friends even-.-
Alright, shall let the pictures do their job!:)
I'm cabbing everyday to school and IM SO BROKE because of that.
My friends make me look forward to school alot. Love them!:)
Saturday started w a 9plus phone call from K telling me he's outside my house. Lol!
Crapped with him till 2plus and he left for work and i left to met Qien and we did threading again!:)
And it was town after that to visit peng while she's working and brandon whose eating there.
Singapore Flyer to look for K and we helped him cause there were not enough staffs!
I SO FEEL LIKE WORKING CAUSE I WANNA EARN MY OWN MONEY:(
After his work, we bought drinks( which i so pathetically had some kid drinks-.- ) and walked a cool bridge which idk is called what. Hahaha.
Sunday busy day! BBQ--->FAMILY DINNER---->SUPPER CLUB---->DRINKING AT WEST COAST PARK---> MEETING K---->HOME !
I reached home at around 9 in the morning. Freaking tired!
Supper club wasn't fun this time round! Music suck lighting suck dance floor suck!
And my cousins drank till the seh AGAIN and i have to take care of the whole lot of them AGAIN.
This time have jiong's friends even-.-
Alright, shall let the pictures do their job!:)
FRAZER IS BACK! AND HE HAS GOT AN ACCENT! HAHAHA!
IM 'WORKING' AT THE SINGAPORE FLYER:):):):)
The brothers! DAMN CUTE! HAHA!
The middle one was mine-.-
I LOVE MY COUSIN<3!!!!!
<3 5:54 PM.
