Tuesday, January 20, 2009
I really have a strong feeling that we're gonna end like this.. Its been dragging for a long long time.. It's worse this time.. I dont know how to face this.. If you think im happy, think twice.. Am i really this kind of person.. Do i show my true feelings that easily? Maybe we really need time to cool for a moment..
Been really busy since school reopen.. Studies, competition, training.. Many many things are happening and i wonder if i can really get through this.. Broke down after training last week.. I'm so glad jiao lian came for the ngee ann's match.. I almost hugged him when he came.. I don not wish to think what if he didnt come.. We won bedok green and ngee ann and we are left with dunman match for the 1st round.. Matches will be at AHS new court for the 2nd round:X Might not be able to post soon.. I've many many things to say.. But i wonder if im able to spills things out here.. I just want you to know..
Labels: Izzit an end?
<3 6:17 PM.
I dont know why i'm feeling this way know.. Maybe i'm just tired or i'm having PMS or some mood swing.. But i'm so depress now:X I dont even know why i am feeling this way.. Weird isn't? Sweets tomorrow please:(
Labels: Sweets sweets sweet
<3 9:44 PM.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
No matter how much i say , how much i asked you to change, you will not listen.. Your friends are the most important.. For them, you can lie to me times and times again.. Making me wait for 3hrsat the bus stop by lying you would be here.. When you don wanna come, you don bother informing me.. Im not stopping you from going anywhere.. But why, why must you promise me things and break it later.. What's the use of promising me and breaking it again? You can don't look for me after that.. Yes, maybe once.. But is that how much you can do to win me back? Is this how impt i am to you? Is this how much you love me? 1year 5months 29days.. Have you forgotton how we were once that sweet and NEVER quarrelling over many things?
There was once when you said my temper is'nt very good.. I tried my best to change.. Look at me now, i don't lose my temper easily and im much more understanding than before.. Not letting you feel stress about being with me.. I were once the youngest and my parents are financially abled and i don have to worry about things concerning money, my sisters gave in to me alot.. I'm a BIG spoilt brat and why.. I changed for you but why cant you? I'm disappointed, i'm sad and im angry.. What should i do? I've ignore you for a day and half already.. Should i carry on doing this? How many more chance do you want? Haven i gave you many chance? Why must you be a jerk and hurt me always..
I just want to be happy.. But why am i not able to be happy without you? Im wondering.. Is this my retribution for letting you down once by having liked another guy at the same time? If that's so, i'm sorry.. But i really had enough of all this nonsense.. Im serious..
Labels: Why why why..
<3 7:34 PM.
