Sunday, May 30, 2010

Know what? Even the way you talk has changed.
At first i still thought im the only one who thought of you that way,
but apparently not.
I'm really shocked.
I don't like the way you are talking now,
The sarcasm, the act popular, arrogant kinda way.
Maybe other people who you knew not long will like it cause they think its cool and funny.
But people who knew you since 4years ago, people who understood you well, will not.
Yes, i may smile, i may play along w you.
However, you wouldn't know that my heart was aching all along inside.
Sometimes i really wonder, what really made you change?
Izzit really me or those people around you?
Look at you, the way you're talking is exactly as D.
The same bhb-ness and the same everything!
I don't understand, really don't understand.
Why change when you were so nice last time?
Really damn fucking nice.
Even when we did what we usually do,
i felt nothing but disgust.
Why am i doing all these with a guy who is a total stranger to me
and does not care a single shit about how i'll feel after that.
Yep, you simply walked away, as always.
I dont feel hurt.
I just....................can't accept the fact.
Lots of regrets.
If only, if only, if only.
These two words kept appearing in my mind.
If only you didn't change,
if only we were still together,
if only you didn't retain and get into that fucking class of yours,
if only.............................

<3 4:13 AM.