Tuesday, October 19, 2010

When one's single, you'll spend lots of time with your friends and family.
But when you're attached, time all goes to your other halves.
I've been ditched by you my very own blood cousin for him and its showing isn't it?
Time you're spending with me now is like what?
Once in every few weeks?
I've been even shouted by my very own blood sister to let her spend time alone with her boyf when i only wanna hitch a car ride to the airport.
Criticized and insulted by my very own blood sister every now and then.
I'm not saying it's your fault for finding someone you love.
All i'm saying is that alex is someone whom treated me with his heart and soul before things changed and he lost his feelings.
But when he loved me, he really gave me his everything and he was VERY good to me.
I love you all but what i really want is someone whom i can really count on.
You're my cousin & my best friend.
Staying by your side and being for you is what i have to do naturally.
I don't insult morris even though i don't like him.
In fact i hate him, hate him for stealing you away.
But that's what cousins are for isn't it?
To be there for each other no matter what.
I'm a fool, yes i am.
But getting over someone i've loved for 3years and still loving now is really difficult for me.
Disappointment just leads me into being more into him and idk why.
He was the only one who made me feel appreciated for things i've done for him and he understands how horrible i feel. He was my pillar of support throughout the years when shits were happening in my family and they were nowhere to be found. All escaping from the hell at home.
I don't want to be always quarrelling with you over him.
I just want moral support like how i'm giving you even though i don't like morris.

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